Some day I'll get around to finishing this.

Happy New Year!
Yay 2006!

I had a ton of fun last night, even though things started kind of slow. It was pretty awesome that everyone managed to come down to the bay so yeah, totally cool.

I had a pretty good year. Nothing absolutely fantastic or anything, but still good nonetheless.

Congrats to Ravi and Alexis too. Yep.

Which got me to thinking..

I think that at this point, I can look back and say there's something about me that makes me attracted to really abusive relationships, given my track record and all. Maybe I just find more normal people boring or something like that. Or maybe in my mind I just equates general craziness = exciting relationship, and that's the flaw.

Anyways, just a thought that I've been tossing around in my head for the last few weeks. Despite all of this, I don't feel any drastic need to change anything at the moment. I think that I came out relatively unscathed, no permanent damage or whatever, and the rules that I set for myself did what they were supposed to do and bailed me out at the right time. I try to view those experiences just as things in the past that happened, and even though they were pretty bad, they help me to find out what I want, or in some cases don't want, in life and in a partner.

Just some thoughts, maybe there will be more later, maybe not.

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